Thinking of her, feeling worried.

She was admitted into hospital this morning because she fell again at home. Twice.

Sent in by ambulance and admitted into ward now. Doctor says there's a clot in her brain. and the family are deciding whether to operate anot. because they will be risks for a very old person. Plus i dont tink she would wan to go for that operation. Old people dislike all these procedures.

But i do not know how big are the consequences if she refused the operation. Im plain worried now. This must be a difficult time for her and the family. Putting myself in her shoes, she must be hopeless now. not wanting to burden the family. Having to stay in the hospital, an unfamiliar environment must have made her feel so bad and uncomfortable. I really just hope that there will be an alternative or a solution. Dont want her to suffer. am praying hard for her.

You will have to leave this place eventually when u aged, but the difference is how u're gona leave. Happily without sufferings or painfully with things left undone. Life is just so difficult. because u have to see ur love ones leave you one by one till ur turn. That is why u got to cherish ur love ones before they're gone forever. This must always be a reminder to me. Not to take them for granted and tell them ''i love you''.

Hais.

It's just not enough for me to see,

A&E posting was fun and exciting! Hw i wish that we can be posted longer there compared to the wards. Haha Coming up next week, will be my OT posting. gona shop for the ugly big crocs shoes this weekend. I'm having mixed feelings regarding my OT posting now- kind of curious and scared. But i'll pray hard that i wont faint or lose my appetite during this OT posting because i did lost abit of appetite when i'm stationed at the A&E resus room. Just cant cope with the stress and scene there.

i wont be selfish, i just need 1 or 2 small operation cases for me to get thru next week.

that's all i wish. hahaha

Ending A&E posting tmr,

Tmr is the last day of my A&E posting. i kinda like the job scope inside. So im abit sad that tmr's the last day :(( Probably shall consider this as one of my choice to work in future? hahas But im scared i cant cope with this fast paced department. i scared it will be too xiong for me.

Today came an unreasonable ignorant china lady who make a fuss and refused to pay her daughter's consultation fees. It was quite a show to me when she argued with the doctors. But she's really the unreasonable one. and it's really hard to handle such difficult relatives. End up she left without paying. Her daughter was like so timid. Didnt even dare to speak up. Her mother probably too fierce already. pity her la.

gona start writing my 400 words reflection.

& DONT WORRY BABY, I WILL TAKE CARE OF MYSELF.

thanks for sending me home today. i love you

Slowly adapting...

my whole body is aching. legs suffered blisters because of the new shoes. i feel weak and tired. stomach felt weird. feel even more uncomfortable when that thing came. i guess my body hasnt adapt to the working hours and environment yet. this condition happened during my first attachment before. At that time, i really had the thought of quitting nursing.

i hope i will be stronger and feel better soon. I'm very thankful to my family for their concern. Especially my mum. Ever since i started attachment, she has been showing her concern to my health & work and is helping me as much as she can. Mummy is really the best! I'm very thankful and touched by her.

i'll blog again when i feel better.

All prepared for my 1st day!

i just finished packing my bag for later. My first day of attachment!

books, waterbottle, umbrella, nametag, scissors, tissue .... all in.

gona sleep now before i wake up again at around 6 plus. goodnight

我爱你，

I spent a lovely sweet day with my boyfriend today!

Had lunch at Sushi tei & went to sing k. i really enjoyed today :)

thanks bii.

Im gona start recapping and reading up on my skills during the weekends. so that i can be more prepared during assessment. That is why i can't make it for an event for my friend. very sorry

Lastly i wanna thank my baby for staying by my side giving me his fullest support, love and care. Thanking him for fulfilling the good boyfriend's duties and for loving me for who i am.

i love you baby. thanks for being there, always.

Joethy made a collage of our toilet pics. hehee

Not bad ah. But it would be better if it includes jingquan ;) the 5 of us!

the chendol looked nice isnt it. But i dont quite like the taste. abit sick for me :(

Sushi tei later, with Baby.

excited and hungry now. I must sleep now before my stomach churns even more.

Bought my working shoes already. it's soft and light~ i hope it wont give me any blisters.

&&

Mum is thoughtful and sweet to give me more pocket money this days. So that i can eat all i want and enjoy as much as i can before i start work. love her so much.

My parents dont express their love and care for me that openly compared to my sis. esp my father. Probably he wants face and dont like to be so mushy. His care is indirect. i cant see it until my mum tells me. but i know both of them love me. and i love them. My love for my father is hidden and indirect too. Similarity between father & daughter. haaas

goodnite. i'll update soon. with photos!

Girlfriends' Day,

Hello by Shinee is nice!

hello hello !

Girlfriend's day today. We went Bugis to shop slack and snap. hehs

Although the time spent wasn't long, but we definitely get to know how each other have been recently. ^^ Seriously cant wait to have another gathering again. Bedok k will be the next venue? Had been quite long since we went to sing tgt alr. miss it!

Took quite alot of photos in Iluma's toilet. haha

solo shot first,

doubles,

together,

it's quite hard to take a full shot of the 4 of us looking nice. as in the head proportion, position and camera angle. so didnt upload the unglam ones ;)

actually my night didnt end very well. not because of gfs, but...

anyway, small problem is solved. can sleep already. ^^

last candid shot by jingru,

thank her for her company to the ica building with me this afternoon. ;)

looking forward to our next meetup girls. ~ love u all.

FIGHTING!

Photos taken from Bii's phone. nth better to do, so snap snap pics!

center parting suits me?

i tink it made my face rounder leh. lol

Attachment starts next monday. im kinda excited & sianz by the thought of it. i hope i dont kena hardcore cases when im in the a/e and ot. dont think i can take it. so i'll pray very hard that spore will be peaceful when im in the a/e. no accidents, no serious injuries, no death. hahaha i'll just dream~ ^^

gotta stock up the things needed and get ready to work NON STOP till next year!

i will pull through this.

Heartwarming Day ,

You're beautiful is NICE! Boys over flowers NICE too!

i like both. the drama and the actors/actresses.

especially the main actor - leeminho & jang geun suk ^^

to me, they looked quite alike. having the same charisma & looks. heees

you can see more of Jang geun suk's photos than leeminho's. hahaha. im more into jgs now because i just finished that drama. lol

an sudden change of plan today. got up feeling sleepy and went to visit that impt person im refering to previously. it's abit sad when i see her being so thin and weak now. aging is really a terrible process when you become weak & fragile. really hope that she wont fall again.

after that, sushi tei for lunch/dinner. it's my first time trying. really liked the spicy miso ramen. the soup is thick and nice. really suited my taste because im a soup person. haha Service is good also. next time shall bring Baby there to try ;)

to sum up, i finally get to see her today and i spent a nice evening with my aunt who dotes me alot. love both of them :)

Alive alive!

heyhihoyo! back for updates. my blog is so dead now.

Old photos for you...

see that cute little pig mooncake? ^^

lunch with 2 of my good friends: amanda & joan

lighting up lanterns, playing candles. enjoying that night with cousins.

doughnuts & yoghurts are my fav!

• jiayou for ur first day of school bii! cheering for u always.(including mimi) hahaha
• 1 more week of hols before attachments. din really really enjoy the 6 weeks hols. time seems to pass so fast when u're having fun and relaxing.
• i just hope this upcoming l-o-n-g attachment will be smoooth for me. i dunwanna fail and repeat. prayhard i'll get nice instructors and staffs :/
• im meeting gfs this wed. like finally a day with the girls. really need to update alot on eachother. i hope it will be a fruitful and fun evening with them :)
• im visiting someone that im really grateful to this thur. she's an impt person to me. i felt indebted to her and guilty for not visiting her frequently :( can't wait to see her.
• i wanna watch the switch & charlie st cloud.
• sis's birthday is coming. that means saving for her present.
• i gotta cut down some weight before attachment so that i'll still be able to fit into my nursing uniform. hehehe :}
• baby u owe me one scoop of b&j chocolate fudge brownie. wahaha!
• im gona make this last week of holiday fruitful. dunwanna regret wasting any time.

drama time now. byeeeeeee!