You're not totally at fault Baby, I am too .
Thanks for the sweetest assurance you gave just now.
Wo ai ni.

UNLUCKY.

Hello Hi ! After a day of slacking in the ward, I'm back in Granny's cosy home ;) Like the feeling of doing what I want after a day's work. Glad that my exams are over. Tinking of the intensive days I spent before exams, really make me so scared and stress up. BUT I'M FREEEE NOW !. As for today, Seriously I did nothing much. I was slacking away because there's few patients but GREAT MANPOWER. I'm also unlucky today. First, getting scolded by a NYP lecturer because of wearing surgical mask to the canteen to buy food. My friends and I were so embarrassed because people were looking at us. Different teachers tell us different things, so who are we going to listen to? So damn confused lah. Second, I was told to lengthen my skirt by my Clinical Instructor because she said that it's short. She's the first one to tell me that. I really believe what my friends told me about her previously. Looks really can be so deceiving.
I din get to meet Dear after work because I was delayed by the CI's briefing. Dear need to follow up an appointment at KK. Meet tmr morning instead cause I really miss my silly boy. Haas Just asked Granny to help me lengthen one of my uniform {before she says me again}. Granny is always so sweet and nice. Thanks
OFF to call my Baby! Peace for the 3 wks in Ward 35.

Outing is fun !

Today is a fun day with Baby! Brunch-ed at Pizza Hut before watching Final Destination. Some parts of the movie were gross that I covered my eyes. And I think that the movie was short. I was expecting more from it. Tmr will be my start of another 3 weeks of attachment at CGH. I feel happy tired lazy and sian . Hoping that this 3 weeks will be a smooth happy and fruitful one. Got to sleep early tonight. Good night ;)

Exams finally over ! Attachment starting this coming Mon.

Yesterday after my last paper, I stayed overnight at my uncle's house. Because my cute little cousin says he miss my sister and me. Aww so sweet. Went out with them today. Compass point, T1, Ikea. Being pampered with good food good things and lots of fun. Fruitful I must say. Haas I still cant upload any photos now, so frustrated.
Final Destination tmr ? So happpy because I get to go out with my Baby after exams.

I feel guilty and bad. I regretted what I have done just now. But after a talk with my aunt, I feel better now. I realise that, you cant judge a person's cover. Some people may seem happy and alright on the outside, but hurt and fragile on the inside. Really need to understand that person before judging him/her. I somehow feel bad regarding this too :} But now I wont.

2 exams down. Left with 3.
It pays for really studying and not just flipping through. Haas
Yesterday was the worst night ever! It has not happen to me before and I really hope it wont repeat and affect my revision. What a good timing?! I'm getting a bit distracted nowdays. Rushing my revision just to watch some dramas I've watched before. I'm not gona let such distractions conquer me. Discipline Discipline pls.
Dinner and I'll continue my revision.

• I have photos to upload BUT something's wrong with blogger.
• I'm happy because I can see my Baby in skl tmr. We have not gone out together. Can wait for our outings after exams. I miss him so much.

Examssss...

Study period now. Restrict myself to alot of temptations such as meeting him. I need to be more disciplined and try to do well. I hope I wont fail ? Do your best too Baby. I will miss you during this period. Let's work hard together. Jiayou!

I can have more sleep tonight cause afternoon shift tmr. Yes! But sad is, I wont be meeting him.

Called you a few times yesterday wanting to ask you something, but no answer. Nvm. You dont even bother to call back. Avoiding our calls ? Or plain lazy to call back ? To you , we're not compared to ur friends. We always cant reach you but ur friends could. So next time dont ask me why I dint update you about the things happening here, cause you're always not there. Do filial piety still exist?

Love Ivy

Get to see Baby today. So happy. Tmr also.
I feel motivated to work bacause I can see him after work. But dont worry dear, I will study.

Happy 19months ani , Baby .
Loving you till the end, I wont let go I promise.

Pictures.

Photos .
KK attachment

I really love babies.


The staff lounge in KK hospital is very nice,


So we started taking photos at the entrance. LOL?




This is where they educate mothers on breastfeeding, bathing and

how to take care of their own baby.

I find this phrase funny and interesting. To be hung on the door knob. HAHA

I enjoyed KK 's posting. But I doubt I will be attached there again. So sad.

Gona enjoy my ice cream now. Byeee.

Love Ivy

Really cant stand flirty girls. Bloody hate that bitch !
But I trust you.

Bad day.

I still cant upload pictures. Blogger's fault.
First day in Ward 44 was so bad because of the N95 mask. We need to wear the mask plus an apron to protect ourselves, cause this ward is at high risk of getting H1N1 patients. Most of the patients here suffer from respiratory problems. So there will be alot of suctioning going on. And suctioning really turns me off and make me feel like puking. Ewww ~ I hope I can dodge away from such procedures for 2 weeks :} Saying about the N95 mask, Firstly it leaves a deep mark on my face whenever I go home which is very ugly and funny. Second, i feel like fainting and feel breathless after wearing it for a long time. The mask really turn my day down. But halfway thru, I found a mask that is more comfortable but not so safe and protected than the N95. I changed to it immediately and was so relieved. The next thing I dont like is that my 1 hr break being divided into half. I cant even finish my food within 30 mins. Rush like mad for the first break and slack like what for the second. I prefer having it at one full shot. At least I can walk down slowly to the canteen, slowly enjoy my food, chat with my friends. Rather than, rushing my food as it can cause indigestion. But my Clinical Instructor has the final say so have to get used to it lor :( But on the otherhand, I get to know new friends and I'm also glad that the staff in Ward 44 are friendly and helpful. I still hope that this 2 weeks will pass fast and I wont encounter any bad experiences.

And I did last office for an Indian man this morning. He died of liver cancer. He passed away with his eyes opened which make my friend having a hard time closing it. But Uncle, May you rest in peace. So far I did 2 last office for 2 patients and their bed number were the same number. Bed Number 7 . Coincident or what ?

I'm gona get sore throat if I continue singing and stop drinking water. HAHA Going to drink lots of water now.
Goodnight diary.
Love Ivy

To you ;

Baby recovered ! Back to my cheerful and happy boy. I'm so happy. Want him to slowly build up his resistance. Hope this is the last time he fall sick this year.

Sometimes, I think people need to learn the hard way to realise their mistakes. Instead of wasting our time and effort talking to her. We dont want to give up on you, we want to help you. But you seems not appreciated and turn a deaf ear to us. This really made us want to give up on you and wash our hands off you. Maybe few years down the road, you'll mature and know whats good for you. But I want to let you know, your actions and words can deeply affect one person. You should know he dotes you alot and he is old now. Somemore sick. So if you really care about him, dont make him worry for you can? Just because you din come back for 1 night, he got worried, angry and disappointed and had fever the next day. Even though we asked him not to think so much or assure him that you are big enough to take care of yourself, you think he will stop worrying? In fact he put up a brave front in front of us, and sometimes I see him mumbling to himself. I know you hate naggings, you want your freedom. But if we dont treat you as one of our family member, we wont care much about you. You understand? But it is up to you to decide what you want in your life. Dont waste your time away, you'll regret in future. And cherish your love ones when they're still around, dont wait till they're gone then you regret. This are words of advice from me. You can choose to take it and accept or turn a deaf ear to it. And you know what, you changed alot. I still prefer the past you. Whenever I recall our childhood times, I will tear or feel sad. Cause I cant find that innocence in you anymore. Anyway I've said my piece. Take care of yourself.

Love Ivy

I hope he will be fine.

Baby's fever came back again. Hais. Poor thing. He's having no appetite and he felt weak and tired. I feel so hopeless cause I cant do anything but see him like that. Pls let him recover. I want my cheerful boy back.

Next week I'm attached to CGH 's medical ward. It wont be as slack as the Obstetrics and Gynae ward already. But I hope I'll get a good Clinical Instructor. And also, I feel so guilty cause I have not start revising for my semestral exams. Seeing Baby like that plus feeling tired and lack of sleep from attachment really makes me have no mood to study. But in order not to repeat any modules this semester, I have to FORCE myself !

Sometimes I have this thought of getting married now, have my own children, clean and tidy the house, cook dinner and wait for my husband to come back from work. Instead of studying :}
A foolish thought I have lah. Hehe.
After sleeping for 11 hours, I'm still tired. I'll go have a short nap. Seeyas!
Love Ivy