OT END LO !!

Today's my last day of OT posting! time passed really fast.

i'm glad to observe quite alot of surgeries in real life. it's really interesting and i find our body very amazing!. I really din expect myself to be so ''brave'' to view the entire surgery. I thought i would puke, faint or become weak. But it was the opposite. I felt very curious and went close to see how they operate. (Still have to be in a tip toe position to see) Haha

we took photos with our clinical instructor and am waiting for Amanda to upload.

and now presenting you my first ART PIECE today ...

i drew that cause he really looked like the wolf that wore Granny's clothes and cap in Little Red Riding Hood. HAHAHA

Seriously, We looked damn funny with the ''shower caps'' on. Look like factory workers & cleaners. very cui. but it's over now. hehe

This green cap is not the shower cap i'm referring to. This looked much more nicer than the white shower cap la. But it's meant for the staffs :( Students always wear ugly things. sad

Our crocs! Joan, Amanda, Ivy.

I wont want to work in the OT when i graduate. Dont quite like the environment. I felt trapped inside for the entire shift because it would be troublesome to change and go out. so have to keep bringing own food early in the morning. abit ma fan. Operations are nice and interesting to see but stressful to work here. and the place is cold~
But i had a great experience this week. :)

Geron posting coming up this Mon. 1 mth of ward 44! Jiayou!

First day of OT posting - boring & troublesome

For now, i dislike being in the operating theatre. it's boring and i felt trapped inside. Not much of freedom of movement because it's already very troublesome to change out of the OT attire just to go down to eat or buy food. then changin back again before stepping in. Really tedious and rushing la. haisssss

lucky it's just a 4 days attachment in OT. thank god fri is a public holiday! shiok

hoping tmr will be better. much more interesting to see.

still have to write out the long long reflection again. sian and maybe presentation too.

i miss A&E now. hahaha

I'm sorry,

My mood wasn't good this weekend. So im sorry if i annoyed, irritated, angered or hurt you. Thank you for bearing with me. i noe you always do. and im sorry again.

There's always low and high periods in life and in relationships. Only those that are true, stick through thick and thin with you. Never leave you or give you up but accept your flaws and wants you to change. Such people can only be ur family, true friends and true love. Dun ever take them for granted.

I'm visiting her tmr in the ward. i really wanna see her face.

hope she's alright.

Thinking of her, feeling worried.

She was admitted into hospital this morning because she fell again at home. Twice.

Sent in by ambulance and admitted into ward now. Doctor says there's a clot in her brain. and the family are deciding whether to operate anot. because they will be risks for a very old person. Plus i dont tink she would wan to go for that operation. Old people dislike all these procedures.

But i do not know how big are the consequences if she refused the operation. Im plain worried now. This must be a difficult time for her and the family. Putting myself in her shoes, she must be hopeless now. not wanting to burden the family. Having to stay in the hospital, an unfamiliar environment must have made her feel so bad and uncomfortable. I really just hope that there will be an alternative or a solution. Dont want her to suffer. am praying hard for her.

You will have to leave this place eventually when u aged, but the difference is how u're gona leave. Happily without sufferings or painfully with things left undone. Life is just so difficult. because u have to see ur love ones leave you one by one till ur turn. That is why u got to cherish ur love ones before they're gone forever. This must always be a reminder to me. Not to take them for granted and tell them ''i love you''.

Hais.

It's just not enough for me to see,

A&E posting was fun and exciting! Hw i wish that we can be posted longer there compared to the wards. Haha Coming up next week, will be my OT posting. gona shop for the ugly big crocs shoes this weekend. I'm having mixed feelings regarding my OT posting now- kind of curious and scared. But i'll pray hard that i wont faint or lose my appetite during this OT posting because i did lost abit of appetite when i'm stationed at the A&E resus room. Just cant cope with the stress and scene there.

i wont be selfish, i just need 1 or 2 small operation cases for me to get thru next week.

that's all i wish. hahaha

Ending A&E posting tmr,

Tmr is the last day of my A&E posting. i kinda like the job scope inside. So im abit sad that tmr's the last day :(( Probably shall consider this as one of my choice to work in future? hahas But im scared i cant cope with this fast paced department. i scared it will be too xiong for me.

Today came an unreasonable ignorant china lady who make a fuss and refused to pay her daughter's consultation fees. It was quite a show to me when she argued with the doctors. But she's really the unreasonable one. and it's really hard to handle such difficult relatives. End up she left without paying. Her daughter was like so timid. Didnt even dare to speak up. Her mother probably too fierce already. pity her la.

gona start writing my 400 words reflection.

& DONT WORRY BABY, I WILL TAKE CARE OF MYSELF.

thanks for sending me home today. i love you

Slowly adapting...

my whole body is aching. legs suffered blisters because of the new shoes. i feel weak and tired. stomach felt weird. feel even more uncomfortable when that thing came. i guess my body hasnt adapt to the working hours and environment yet. this condition happened during my first attachment before. At that time, i really had the thought of quitting nursing.

i hope i will be stronger and feel better soon. I'm very thankful to my family for their concern. Especially my mum. Ever since i started attachment, she has been showing her concern to my health & work and is helping me as much as she can. Mummy is really the best! I'm very thankful and touched by her.

i'll blog again when i feel better.