why? why? why?

Watched ''Made Of Honour'' followed by dinner at Mac with my sweet boy today. What shall we watch tmr ? What shall we eat tmr ? Hmms. ___________

Dad's not back yet, so i can blog happily and breathe fresh air. Actually he should be fulfilling his promise to us but he didn't. He promised that he would quit smoking after his operation which make me so happy. Happy for his health and happy that we do not need to be passive smokers. But Dad disappointed us by breaking his promise :( I felt so angry,sad,disappointed and stressed. Why do I feel stress? He always smokes in the living room which affects me. I cant watch the tv or use the com properly as I feel very suffocated by the smoke. I persuaded Dad to stop smoking, all of us persuaded. But he ignored and find us irritating and controlling. So no one stops him after that. Sometimes I think, why cant he think for us? Or smoke somewhere near the window or door so we wont smell it. I have to hide in the room when he starts smoking because I really cant tolerate the smell and I dont want to be a passive smoker. It really affects me. My activities are quite restricted now. Cooping myself in the room.. Hais Recalling back, Dad dont smoke or drink at all which make me so proud of him. I would even boast to my friends or find my Dad better than others. But now... I just hope he quit someday or limit his number of cigs. He's back now. Gona go back into my room soon. Nights.